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I am well aware that letting myself eat hardly anything every day to lose weight is a horrible approach to weight loss. I lost 1 pound each day. I've lost 8 pounds and I'm down to 124. My mom still says I'm fat. When will I be thin in your eyes, mom? Don't you see that your words are LITERALLY killing me?

Cinco de Mayo, normal day off work until 3pm when I go see Dr. White, he tells me I have type 1 diabetes, its a late onset, seeing as I am 22... its been in my system hiding since I was born then something set it off, we're not sure what. This really sucks cause of the things in my life that have to change

1. Smoking, I'm one of the few smokers who enjoys it but now I'm super susceptible to heart attack and high blood pressure
2. Drinking, I'm not a huge drinker but I do enjoy it every now and then, but it screws with your blood pressure and again the whole cardio vascular system problems
3. Diet, I now have to count carbs and watch my intake of sugars
4. DKA, Diabetic Ketoacidosis, I have early signs of this disorder, what is happening is my body can't process the sugars and proteins I am giving it and so it is basically eating my lien muscle tissue, this has a 50% fatality rate
5. Life style in general, I have to change my entire routine in order to accommodate for this disorder, eating habits, exercise, sleep, all of it. On top of that I'm probably being kicked out of the army will be able to keep my benefits but will probably lose my security clearance and because of that, my job which requires a secret clearance minimum...
6. Finance, Diabetes is very expensive, around 200$ a week. Sometimes more.
even though I was diagnosed yesterday I'm not sure its hit me yet... I've been crying on and off for the last 28 hours, my mother treats me like I'm dying now, it seems the only person who really understands what I'm going through is my Aunt who also is a late onset type 1 diabetic... I have some okay support but I want more... what am I going to do?