Strangers Diary - Free Diary Online

My boyfriend and I broke up after 4 years and that's the good news. But the one I want is out of reach, he hasn't spoken to me since the end of January, he just stops talking to me, I don't know why, I never will. I only know that I want to see him, I want to feel him I want to hear his voice again. Sadly, it's been over a year since I saw him last, we chat once in a while when he pops up and deigns to speak to me and the conversations always get us both really worked up but then he disappears for months on end.

I should let it go, just forget it but I can't seem to let it go because it feels unfinished, anyone who gets under my skin the way he does is there for a reason and for my selfish reasons I want to see him again just to see what's there or isn't because right now all I have is my imagination based on our conversations.

I want to show up on his doorstep and demand an audience - but I can't, I really don't want to be the stalker I am - thankfully he lives 3500 miles away so I can't just drop by.

What to do? It's the misery of the opportunity.

I'm getting married to the most beautiful girl in the world.

dear diary,

i've become more and more attached to this person on twitter who lives in a different continent. no-one's mentioned love yet, but we've been talking "what ifs" a whole lot. im not seeing anyone at the moment and this kid - did i mention he's 11 years younger? - seems to make me smile whenever i receive a DM from him. this flirtation has been going on for about a month now but it's never left the twitter DM realm. no mention of adding each other on FB or even chatting on Y!M. i guess we both would rather maintain the fantasy and not let it get too real. but somehow things are getting more and more involving. the flirting seems to feel more like caring now. but i know myself and i know i will end up waist-deep in something imaginary struggling to pull myself out when we both (or one of us) comes to. its fun and it does kinda feel like there's a possibility. yeah, a 1 in 10,000 chance we would even meet in person.

My best friend listed herself as "in a relationship" on facebook. I clicked the like button and went to her page. It was my boyfriend.