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i think it is the condescension that hurts me the most. you would think being kicked out of your house on christmas day by your parents would hurt, but that's something i have gotten used to over the last few years.

no. it's the sound of their voices when i phone up to ask about the next time. when i ask about going over to watch the game, they tell me they'll be out of town. or that they aren't going to watch it this week as they have church.

they never go out of town and though they are regular church goers they dont go on a saturday afternoon.

just once i'd like some honesty from them. that instead of fobbing me off with excuses and stories they know i won't believe, they tell me that they just don't want me around.

at least then i could be sure. instead of just thinking it might just be my imagination and that it might be my fault.

it would just be nice to know.

My husband is a kind of scarce angel. He only admires and let me learn and improve in my own way through his silence. I wish all of us once try to be like him and make life happier to people around us.

Our Planet is Dying, No one really cares. It hurts me to feel so helpless as I watch it continue to be destroyed when it affects us all. Nature doesn't have a chance against Man's selfishness & greed.The
Planet needs us to care for it so that we may survive. There must be harmony, we must try.

I miss how it was with Kody. I still love him, and it hurts so much. God I suck.

Why last night don't you call me? I have been waiting you but you kept silent with me. what does it meant? I want my love not only love me but give me a care and worrying me.

Last night there was something unbelievable happen with me. It almost destroyed my relation with my love. While talking phone with him, he told me that he heard man's voice talk with him. It was very strange that while I talk with him I am always alone. I think he thought that I have another guy near me. In fact, I live alone and I don't have any relation other man. So where is the man's voice come from? My love may still have doubt on me. It was happened four times already. I told this problem to my close friend. I don't care does she believe me or not but what I care the most does my love believe me. I am sad why while I talk phone with him there is a man's voice come a long with our conversation?

Story time: I went running further from my house than I ever have before to encounter a very hilly road with little excess pavement on the sides and many overgrown bushes. I am running and trying to make sure no car behind me or in front of me is going to hit me, when I turn around front to see arms sticking out of a car driving by me. They throw full and open cans of Dr. Pepper at me, placing one right on my right abdomen, bruising it. But it fucking scared me more than anything. Fucking teenagers. Laughed the whole way over the hill where I couldn't see their license plate.

But I stood there in shock, in pain, in thought, ready to give up. And then I decided to fight. And I ran harder than I ever have, out of pure anger and hatred. I realized that, finally, one of those insults, one of those damn slurs materialized. The faces of prejudice hit me with everything they fucking had, and I trained harder afterwords because of it.

hey em i just came here cause i want a place that i can express myself without ppl judging me ...

WOW People I know it hurts but beating yourself up and thinking these negative hurtful thoughts is not going to change anything. Love is painful and hearts are broken everyday. The pain feels endless and when you try to get some rest and sleep you even dream of them and the thoughts. It is very hard but If we trust in the Lord all will work out for good. look for the Lord that is what you are really missing. Than is why we sometimes have a lonely lingering feeling. Jesus can heal your heart. He is healing mine.

"Eat my boob, skank twat."