Strangers Diary - Free Diary Online

i think it is the condescension that hurts me the most. you would think being kicked out of your house on christmas day by your parents would hurt, but that's something i have gotten used to over the last few years.

no. it's the sound of their voices when i phone up to ask about the next time. when i ask about going over to watch the game, they tell me they'll be out of town. or that they aren't going to watch it this week as they have church.

they never go out of town and though they are regular church goers they dont go on a saturday afternoon.

just once i'd like some honesty from them. that instead of fobbing me off with excuses and stories they know i won't believe, they tell me that they just don't want me around.

at least then i could be sure. instead of just thinking it might just be my imagination and that it might be my fault.

it would just be nice to know.