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Last night there was something unbelievable happen with me. It almost destroyed my relation with my love. While talking phone with him, he told me that he heard man's voice talk with him. It was very strange that while I talk with him I am always alone. I think he thought that I have another guy near me. In fact, I live alone and I don't have any relation other man. So where is the man's voice come from? My love may still have doubt on me. It was happened four times already. I told this problem to my close friend. I don't care does she believe me or not but what I care the most does my love believe me. I am sad why while I talk phone with him there is a man's voice come a long with our conversation?

Tonight, I felt warmth from a person without any pressure to do more. It was....intensely wonderful. I can't wait to see him again.

i know it's silly, after all this time, to be questioning things between us. but still...

The first person I share everything with. I'll change my mind back and forth on this, I know. But I want to know what your lips taste like. I want to know you. I want you to know me. And I don't want my heart to break when we depart. I want a notion of comfort to overwhelm me that there is someone who cares, someone I can come back to.

Uhg- some relationships between people are so obnoxious. I'm just glad mine is not full of constant bickering.

I am in love with you. If only there were some way I could tell you. Your smile lights up my day. Every second you're hugging me, I fall a little more in love with you. Your kisses on my cheeks are the first thing in awhile that actually put butterflies in my stomach. When you pull me into spontaneous hugs, when you tickled me, when you tell me that you miss me, when you called me dear, when you bought me a red rose... A piece of my heart felt like you felt the same way about me.

I'll keep this short and to the point...

I'm currently engaged and in a relationship that I really don't want to be in, yet I stay. I stay for her, she wants it more than anything, and I know that my ending it would absolutely destroy her. So I think I'll continue down this road and hopefully someday find comfort that it's a situation that'll work out.

I write this here because I can't really talk to anybody about this because if I do then it'll all get back to her. Thanks for listening fellow strangers, and good night.

I've gone through grades 1-12 and some college.

I still don't have a job. I hope to finally drive this year (scary thing).

I've never had a boyfriend. I've never been kissed. Still a virgin, obviously.

My closest friends now are ones I keep in touch with online. Not good at meeting new people or keeping in touch with people.

I have this fear of talking of the phone and making calls. Answering is sometimes alright.

I bask in the love and companionship of my relatives and family friends. Also my pets. And I love all my unique, wonderful hobbies.

But deep down I think I would commit suicide from being so socially disabled and not having romantic love. I could never go through with it. I'm too smart for that. I love so many things in my life too much for that. Plus I have a fear of the pain and/or suffering. NO WAY would I ever go through with it.

This is not a cry for help. Just had to write. There's comfort sharing it here instead of writing it in an actual physical journal.