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My husband got drunk this past weekend. There is nothing new there. Though To make things interesting he got on Craigs list and found some swingers to hang out with at midnight. It made for one interesting night. though he doesn't remember half of it, I had fun just getting to know them. they stayed til 4 and I had to work at 7 that morning Never went to sleep but drank way to many monsters. I think he would feel jealous if I invited them over again?

I guess I am just waiting to be noticed again. I kinda feel transparent like people are looking at me, but see right threw me. I need to add color to my life again, but how?

Do I stay because I love him or do I go because he doesn't love me anymore. I guess he doesn't have to have a good time with me when he has a great time with her. I read his email. It wasn't like I logged on. he left it up. yeah it was in the trash bin but he forgot to empty it. Apparently its been going on for months.

I go from being ignored, to thinking of cheating to having the best sex ever, and then being ignored again. Its all just Bull Shit

He works later and later everyday. sometimes i wonder if he is really working. There was a week of bliss and now I feel invisible again. what ever.

I never knew how upsetting it could be to see him text someone all night and not know who it would be.Its like I want to take his phone and read it as he sits there and laughs at what ever he has received. trust issues much?

After talking to him, and telling him that I was thinking of cheating on him but hadn't yet.He was a little angry, But oh my gosh did he try harder in the bedroom. This past week has been AMAZING.

Porn. Adultery or harmless fun?

I love him but I crave sex. Some times he doesn't give me enough. Its like if he gets off he doesn't care if I finish because he is done. So is it so bad that I fantasize about being with another man, if I don't really act upon it? guys do it all the time don't they?