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Sometimes, I just want to scream until everything stops happening. That way, I can live without wondering why I can't speak louder.

I hate when he gets upset that we don't have sex. Doesn't he understand how dirty it makes me feel every time?

I hate empty houses. They remind me of how much I suck at life.

I encouraged Kris to love her. I think it's adorable how devoted he is to her. But inside, I wish he would love me.

I keep on saying that I want to change my life. I want to be happy. But every action I take seems to be the direct opposite.

I need someone to just notice that I am hurting this bad. If I had a car....I would be so far away from here just to escape it.

I want to go back to South Dakota. I want it so much.

I feel so empty. Like the world is passing me by. Why can't I feel something, even when he loves me so much?

The one thing I never understand is why I am so submissive when I know that this kills me inside.

Today was the first day I didn' text back and forth with Him. Is it weird that I completely missed having him there with me the whole day?