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Dezzy is flirting with me lately...and I don't know what to do...I'm gonna hang out with her and probably smoke with her sometime. But she's still taken...should I try to make a move anyways? Aside from that, probably moving to North Carolina, but Idk yet.

Don't you ever turn it off.

PROTECT IP, it can burn in hell.

Anywho, I've been bored out of my mind lately. No weed smoking since I'm hoping for a job soon...but that's going very slowly. Party next weekend. Having a bonfire at my house. So I've been cleaning my house all week, making it guest-friendly. That's about it...life is boring.

Since my last post. Let's see, since my birthday party life has been full of partying and loneliness. Parties every weekend or so, aside from this week, and loneliness other times. I'm trying to meet people via dating sites...with no luck. It sucks. Amanda tells me I should not worry about it...easy for her to say, she always has a boyfriend, and when she doesn't, finds one in a matter of days. Why? Because she has friends of the opposite sex, unlike me, and is freakin' hot, unlike me. Had a dream the other night about being asked out by my friend's gf, mentioned in last post. To add them to the list of characters in my life, their names are Alexander (Alex) and Alexandra (Allie). No joke. That's how similar their names are. Anywho, woke up half convinced it was real, but when I realized the couch I was on wasn't the normal area I'd pass out after a party with them, I realized it was just a dream, to my dismay. But yeah, that's all for now.

Was pretty epic. 190 bucks of booze. 60 jello shots. I chugged Apple Pucker on an empty stomach, and had a Margherita, some NoS and vodka, some NoS and Pucker, 5-7 jello shots, some awesome fruity drink, and some Malibu rum. Needless to say, 160lb me, was drunk off my ass very quickly. I told my friend's gf her ass was sparkly because she was wearing gold sequin's and her and I apparently cuddled earlier. We were all wasted. I'm told this by my friend/her bf. I was still drunk the next morning, and slept it off til 2pm-ish. Since then, I just wish I could remember if that cuddling happened because I haven't cuddled with ANYONE in forever and I've kinda had a crush on her lately, which is weird cuz her, her bf, and I hang out and smoke quite a bit and, as I said, her bf and I are friends. But her and I are friends as well. Weird shit in my life, it never ends.

So I saw a facebook page satirizing how America got Osama finally right after the Royal Wedding and how it was kinda America outdoing the British and many posts on the page were just British raging with American stereotypes. We are not all fat. We are not all ignorant. We are not all rednecks. Most are not those things. Thus they don't make it to the media and spread their image worldwide.

Happy 420 everyone, I'm actually not smoking today becacuse I have no one to hang out with. A bit has changed in the months I haven't posted. I got a laptop. Got into a new game, League of Legends. Broke up with Shawna in November. Been single since then. No much else to say. had a job at McDonald's for a month and a half then quit cuz I was the only one to put forth effort there and it drove me mad. Graduated high school. My ssister's having a second kid soon...at age 19....and yeah, that's about it.

Always so topsy turvey with me.....sooooooo stuck on Shawna.....(yes, we're back together, have been since the 18th)....somehow I got a free month of WoW though and I'm spam calling McDonald's for a job lately.....maybe life will look up...

Broke up again. W/e. Don't feel anything yet 'cuz I prepared for it.

Spent the day with Shawna. Hung out for most of it naked in the woods behind her house. We tried to have sex but she got hurt too bad by it so we gave up on it. really the only major happenings of today.

Going back out with Shawna. Idk how I feel about it as a life decision but I enjoy her company and being with her and I love her so, fuck the mind, follow the heart. Just concerned cuz she is okay with losing her virginity to me....I want to be that person for her...but...I don't think I deserve to be that special.