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I got drunk on Friday with the guy I've loved for a year. First time I've been drunk and needless to say, stuff happened. I thought he actually liked me for who I am because he always told me I'm amazing and beautiful. He kicked me out at 9 in the morning and hasn't talked to me since, and has ignored me when I try to talk to him. I don't want to jump to conclusions but I feel ridiculously used and I'm trying not to be hurt because I hate crying over guys... I hope I didn't make a mistake; I don't live in regrets.

I'm going to get drunk for the first time this coming Friday.
With the guy I'm in love with.
I'm hoping this won't be how I lose my virginity.
But I know he's attracted to me.
I'm scared. What am I doing?