Strangers Diary - Free Diary Online

I want a boy who will do everything to keep me away from alcohol, rather than pressure to drink every weekend.
I want a boy who will nag me to quit smoking, rather than provide me with my cigarettes.
I want a boy who will wait until I'm ready to have sex, rather than try to use me and pressure me into it when I'm not ready.
I want a boy who will kiss the scars on my legs and tell me I'm beautiful despite them, rather than stare at them and think I'm sick.
I want a boy who will love and accept me for who I am, rather than leaving me because of my flaws
Just once, I want to be loved.

What they say is true- waking up next to the love of your life really is the most amazing feeling in the entire world.

I don't know if people can help their feelings, all I know is I'm trying my hardest to do just that. I'm trying my best not to fall in love with you. But there isn't anything about you that I would change. I can't stand to see you hurt. No matter what I tell myself, I can't help loving the way you smile and look me in the eyes. I wish I could be happy with just friends. But you're perfect.

'Cause isn't that what love is about? I wish I could tell him that I'm jealous of those other girls, but I'll always support him and help him find love, because his happiness means the world to me...

I've been in love with the same guy for 2 years. For one of those years, we weren't speaking. Regardless I never stopped loving him. I got sick of holding it all in. So today I told him I "like him more than a friend." When really, it's much more than that. And I found out that he doesn't feel the same. I know if you're heart was literally broken, you'd be dead... But right now I honestly feel like I could be. I regret the day I met him because he's caused me so much pain. But I'll always love him.

Being in love isn't something that someone can just "stop doing." I would know. If it were my choice, I wouldn't be in love with him. But that is out of my control.