Strangers Diary - Free Diary Online

I'm going to get drunk for the first time this coming Friday.
With the guy I'm in love with.
I'm hoping this won't be how I lose my virginity.
But I know he's attracted to me.
I'm scared. What am I doing?

Sometimes I wonder how people would act if I told them that I'm bisexual. Thinking about it scares the hell out of me.

I don't know if people can help their feelings, all I know is I'm trying my hardest to do just that. I'm trying my best not to fall in love with you. But there isn't anything about you that I would change. I can't stand to see you hurt. No matter what I tell myself, I can't help loving the way you smile and look me in the eyes. I wish I could be happy with just friends. But you're perfect.

I don't believe that there is someone out there for everyone. Life isn't about trying to find true love. Love is something society made up to feel useful and wanted.

I believe that 2 hands at work will accomplish more than 10000 hands clasped in prayer. I can't believe in a God like I once did.

But every time I look at my legs, I'm reminded with scars of how weak I once was. They'll always be there. I have to see them every day, and when I wear shorts, I get to hear other people ask what happened. I regret nothing, I just wish my scars were only on my heart, not on the surface.

My mom and step dad fight all the time.
4 days ago, the fight was my fault.
I don't think he's coming back this time.
I'll never forgive myself.
I'm so sorry mom.

Whoever said texting is stupid might be partly right. But I never knew how powerful it could actually be until now. I'm "anorexic," depressed, and I believe I'm completely worthless. Last night one of my best friends was texting me. He thinks I'm amazing. He said "Why can't more girls be like you?" Suddenly I don't feel so horrible about myself. A simple text changed me, might even be enough to save me, and he has no idea.
Thank you.

'Cause isn't that what love is about? I wish I could tell him that I'm jealous of those other girls, but I'll always support him and help him find love, because his happiness means the world to me...

I can't step on the scale anymore because I'm afraid of gaining weight.