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This time last year, I was suicidal because I didn't have a job. And this year, I became suicidal over the job I got. Some people may think, after reading that sentence, that I just can't catch a break. But, to me, quitting something that is no longer satisfying to the life path I'm on is empowering. It feels good to know what I want out of life, and that I will answer to my heart first--at all costs.

It feels good to write, even if your writing is filled with self-loathing, even if no one will see it, and even if you think you have no real reason to write. Get it all out, empty your brain, you'll feel better. I just did it. I can breathe easy for a little while now. I feel like a fighter that lives to survive another day. So by all means, write. Write like the wind.

Practice yoga
Become a vegetarian
Stop playing capoeira
Quit school
Stop playing music

These are things I told myself that I will never do, and yet, I've done all of them. The things that I didn't want to define me when I was little actually shaped me. It has all been one huge disappointment.

But hey, I also said to myself that I will never move out of my parent's house, find something I love doing, succeed, follow through with anything, travel the world, be happy, or finally be content with myself.

Here's to hoping that the pattern works out.